I have ventured to the local sainsbury’s today, to try to get some shopping..
TRY being the operative word..
Just the trip has worn me out and now I am sitting in the attached coffee shop, with a cold coffee, feeling very sorry for myself.
I know I literally cannot walk round the store… and that burns me to my very core.
To all eyes I look like a normal woman just sitting sipping her drink, on her phone, enjoying her day.
But right now, my legs feel.like someone has knee’ed them constantly (remember the “Dead-leg” fad from school – Imagine that being inflicted multiple times, from your ankle to your buttocks).
My neck feels like it cant hold the weight of my head.
My elbows are hurting in a way I simply cannot describe.
My fingers are burning at the knuckles ( typing is NOT helping BUT this is cathartic, its stopping me from crying).
And on top of all.of this I am biding my time before trying to get up from this chair without looking like I’ve shat myself… as I know I’m gonna fail to be graceful…
All the while I look OK..
I’m so so fed up of this pain..
I’m so sad in Starbucks.