What to do next

I saw this image and it hit home.. I’ve got an amazing resilient personality, ever since I was a kid, but I’m beginning to think I need to “put it down” and actually feel/act the way I really do. To that end.. writing is cathartic but its painful (my knuckles feel like they are on…

Stressed -DWP Compliance

I’ve been contacted by the DWP Compliance dept for info.. I know they have to check everyone, Crikey Im the first to shout “Open & Honest” on everything I do & say.. BUT It’s so stressful. Tbh I really think that the Dr’s & “specialists might be right.. When you get ill, you should just…

The bad for the good

It’s my Birthday tomorrow, and a friend of mine suggested we go visit a friend we havent seen in a while over the weekend. So I’ve been Syching myself up for the weekend for a few days.. you know, not doing too much, saving my spoons etc.. So on Saturday I drove for an hour…

The Battle

There were days (not so very long ago) where I would jump out of bed at 6.30am, jump into the shower & get ready for work. I’d be out of the door by 7 & at my desk by 8am ready to conquer the day. Today 5 years later, it regularly takes me those 2…

DOSTOEVSKY

That’s where I am at right now… Says it all….😥😥😥 “What is Hell, I maintain its the suffering of being unable to love” DOSTOEVSKY

Pulling on the Anxiety

Anyone with a chronic illness ( especially one that’s hidden) will understand how completely embarrassing it is.. not only to be torn away from your previous life of being a fully functioning, productive, professional person, but to have to claim benefits ( side bar – why are they called “Benefits” when they don’t Benefit anyone…

Trapped

When you’re laying in bed, looking at Job ads online in the career you used to do. Just knowing you still have all the knowledge and skills needed to be amazing in that role is so super depressing. I want to scream….